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I started suffering migraines again recently, which I haven't done since high school. Well, I've had random migraines, but they weren't that frequent or that intense, so when I ran out of Midrin I didn't bother getting my prescription renewed. Past two months though, it's been one after another, so I've been popping the Excedrin Migraine and gritting my teeth and kind of refusing to admit they were back. I've had a rough couple months so I'm sure that the stress brought them out again but I was all refusing to see a connection, etc.

Last Wednesday, I was in my office and suddenly in so much pain I couldn't even function. Blinding pain behind my right eye, dizziness, nausea, light sensitive, the whole bag. Pills, water, waiting, and I felt OK enough to go to my other job for a couple hours. But there was a weird feeling behind my right eye, and black dots, and I could see OK but it felt like there was a thin white film over part of my eye. That was somehow invisible. Or something. I don't even know how to describe it, except as kind of scary.

I called my doctor's office and the on-call guy told me it was probably just a more severe migraine than I was used to but to go to the ER and have it checked out/get a shot of Imitrex, and I called my mom and ended up not going. She was like, 'you're stressed, you're upset, you haven't eaten and your blood sugar is low, so eat something and go to sleep,' and I did feel a little better after juice (was not up to food) and a nap, so.

The weird feeling behind my eye didn't go away, although it abated over the week, but I've still had a low grade headache since then and pretty bad light sensitivity, so I set up an appt with my Doctor for today before the other work.

Fortunately, he says there's nothing wrong with my eye and that what I was describing was fairly consistent with severe migraines, that everyone suffers them differently and sometimes your symptoms change. My first migraine hit when I was about 13. Changes over a decade...just to be expected, I guess.

He wrote me a prescription for Imitrex and one for codeine and now I have to keep a log for a month on when I have the headaches and what the pills do to relieve them. If we don't see significant improvement in the month, we'll do some tests and/or go on a different drug, one that I'd take every day as opposed to when a migraine is developing. He said that considering the duration/severity of the migraines I've been having, he feels 50/50 on whether the Imitrex will do the trick. I'm not a fan of Imitrex--I'm convinced that it makes me throw up, but every single doctor who ever gave me a shot of it when I was a teenager and suffering the migraines was convinced it was just another symptom. So we'll see what the pills do. I think they'll work, because I'm sure this is just a stress reaction, not a permanent change.

I could really, really do without the visual effects. Thank God I'm not noise sensitive though, that'd really kill me at the kennel.

The good news is that I've lost 16lbs since I last saw him, *and* he had some kind of major attitude adjustment--I was gonna change PCPs because he was a jerk last time I saw him, but didn't get around to it, and now I might not. We'll see, in a month.

In other news, my boss bought business cards for me and I kind of had a commitment-y freak out because eeek, 1000 cards! with my name! as office manager!1!!11! I've been putting off ordering them since, um, this time last year because that's a lot of cards, yo, and. Commitment. Eeeek.

My beloved Yorkie puppy, who I was considering spending too much money on and then sneaking into my apartment until I moved, was sold over the weekend while I wasn't in the office. Sneaky people, stealing my little Smidgen! Very upsetting. I can't even bring myself to look at their sales contract. Everyone in the office is laughing at me but dude, I loved that puppy. Sigh sigh. I'll just have to find a new mascot, I guess. It really sucks to get so attached, sometimes.

I have to go through my mailbox, I am so freaking behind on stuff. Part of my problem is that I joined this mailing list so I could get me some Legolas/Gimli fic, and of course it's not all much good. In fact it's mostly really bad. But I can't. help. reading it. because I'm a loser like that. There was one the other day that had no punctuation in the dialogue. And the girl thanked her beta reader and I almost cried because! she had a beta! And no punctuation! It was very sad. You don't see me volunteering to help beta or anything, because I suck.

While I was in Best Buy on Tues for Schizophrenic, I picked up Maroon 5's Songs About Jane. It doesn't seem to matter how often I listen to Harder to Breathe, I don't get sick of it. Also bought a Howie Day CD because my friends have good taste! Haven't listened to either CD, though. Because. Schizophrenic!

After multiple (multiple) listenings, I have decided that Everything You Want is my unexpected favorite song off Schizophrenic. Love it. I like most of the songs on the CD, but this one has been stuck in my head in the best way.

Dude, how thrilled was I to see those Chola pics? Thrilled thrilled thrilled. Guh, the beauty, and the tattoos. And the Bikers for Kerry t-shirt. Love Chris. Everytime I see a pic of him, my love for the whole fandom is renewed.

Still not writing, though. Still have snippets! Have two stories I promised myself I'd write before April 1st, which will be my 2nd anniversary of posting popslash! Maybe this weekend I'll get something accomplished.

Or maybe I'll just sit around and stare at Chola pics and drool. Sounds like good times, I think. ;-)

For now though--pills and sleep, mmm.